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How to find a reason to make a massacre reasonable? Can you?

When people chanted their grievance to the regime, sued the government for bribery, in an attempt to make the country turn to a better way, would you dub them as a dissident or traitor?

How can a government make such a decision to sent tanks to crush their people and order troops to trample on the people bodies? just in light of the people had not hailed them?

Can a ballyhoo written by ink taint the history recorded by blood?

We should not make it too sentimental, but were needed to hold the truth for next generation.

你的樣子如何, 你的日子也必如何? Your face is you fate?

Despite it is not something unprecedented, even old-fashioned, it still makes me feel fresh and passionate, by that newly screened movie. The story is very simple as a fairy tale, it is some kind of the film that you can forecast the ending at the beginning. A fat and nasty looked guy, who chef in a small restaurant, find it is hard to make friend with any girl. Despite he has tried for many times, and he is a really optimistic, enthusiastic and ruthful guy, but all the girls dislike him just due to his ugly face. When he is sombre and wants to give up, he is given a "homesome suit". As the name. meaning, the suit can make the wearer to be the most handsome guy u can ever imagine. The guy's fate is thus change dramatically, he get all the girls' attendtion, haunted by a flock of pretty women. The ending is easy to guess, and i dont want to say anymore, just see it by yourself.
To my recollection, there was a similar movie srceened in Honk Kong years ago, casted by Andy Lau.


With similar story (maybe not that similar), but the endings of those two story are very different. The guy and the girl in "Love on a diet" were both fat and nasty, and faced many hurdles from their society due to their bad-looking. The guy suffered and dedicated to make the girl get enough money to receive surgery to be a pretty girl. After all, the surgery was very sucessful, and the girl was touched by that noble act form the guy, and the ending is:

"You are so slim!?"
Well, what a happy ending, both the guy and the girl now look so fit and beautiful, cheer~
So, what's in the mind of our city's media? Basically it was a good movie, and some of the scenes were very meaningful and touching, the guy's dedication is a really sacrifice to the girl. But ironically, the ending ruins it all. Why the people with those noble traits must have to possess a good looking face to archieve a good ending? It seem the story is just to say that despite you have made a lots of sacrifice, you have to get a charming apperance, get it?
"Handsome suit" obviously drawfed the "Love on a diet". At lease "Handsome suit" has sent you one meaningful message: The most handsome guy is the one who can really love and appreicate himself, and thus he can also love and appreicate the others, as to protect the others. The guy who hates himself and always shames the reality is merely a ugly guy, no matter how handsome is he, that guy can only to be cosmetic, selfish and reclusive. Just one thing: the apperance is not important at all:
Is it just a imaginary? Is that somethings old-fashioned? Yes, definitely. The story overlooks one thing very important in the reality: Come on, not all of the fat guy possesses a ruthful heart, as not all of the cool man shares a bad traits. Anyways, the movie is funny and the message is solemn, I love it.

How to keep a habit?

I have heard that if you keep doing sth once a day for 3 weeks, it would be u habit. Yes, i did, but sometimes i was frustrated, Why? I found my incentive was going to be shrank, my passion was cooling down, no matter how did i fuel it. But I have to hurdle it, i believe i can make it.
If you want to get sometimes, you would first give out somthing. Just like that you should first seek to understand, then to be understood. But i guess it is not a piece of cake.
I always say that nothing is impossible, unless you give up. Yes i know, you just dont agree with it. it sound like a simple, not mature and short sighted guy would say. If you see more, hear more, look into the reality, you easily found that the obstacles are everywhere, they are overwhelming, enormous, make you contract, make you shirk. You have no choice but give it up.
But i want to believe (not X-File) the most valuable thing can only be made with the longest, most ineffective way. "Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional". You dont believe it, my friends dont believe it, even my closest family, doesnt believe it. Okay, but i have my independent will, i want to believe it. Despite i feel really tired.

不游得 - About swimming

Maybe it is unwise to go swimming amid swine flu, but i have done it today. Who's fxxking cares? Why do i want to talk about swimming? There are a few reasons, swimming is almost the only good thing i would do, i am really grateful to have such a healthy habit. Also i have read Murakami Haruki's "what i talk about when i talk about running"(即村上春樹的《關於跑步，我說的其實是⋯⋯》, 中譯版推出了相當一段時間了), that inspires me. (Actually i have yet to finish it, it is a very nice book, i will likely to share my feeling for it once i finish.)

Many people know how to swim pretty well, but i am not one of them. I am too weak for freestyle, too aggressive for backstroke, too struggled for breast stroke, and, too tired for butterfly stroke. Perhaps swimming is funny for you, but i want to say, it is a suffering for me. I have a friend (Dennis) who is really good at swimming and he is my coach (but not very professional). At first, he teached me how to do freesytle, when i was a novice for swimming. No matter how hard he taught, how hard i tried, i just could not do it for 50 metres. In that summer, the utmost i could do is just about 25m. As you could see in swimming pool, many old man, old woman, even baby girl, can do 100 more metres easily, and you could understand how frustrated i was. In the next summer, it's better - 40 metre. Some of my friends, those did not know how to swim very well and received no train, could finish 50 metre easily. You could see someone who keep waving his body in the water, but didn't move any forward. Yes, it is me. It made me feel some kind of depression, and some kind of angry. I have done it unremittingly, I spent all my time, why i can't make it ? The another side of pool seem too far to reach, my body seem too heavy to float. I was hydrophobic. Maybe basketball or running was a better chioce for me.

But i dont know why, i just haven't given up at that time. Never think of me that i am a tough guy, i am not, definitely. Maybe my ancestry have done somethings, ghost knows? As i saw all the people surpassing me, i just kept waving my body, not very nice-looking, unremittingly. Sometimes others would think of that i was drowned. I crawled in the water, metre by metre. One day, i found i can reach the another side of pool, despite slowly - I made it. That 50 metres made me a shining moment in my life. So i could do as good as my friends, Yeah~

So how about how far i can go now? Over 1000 metre, i am not kidding. But my pace is still low, i can just do it slowly. It doesn't matter, i am not going to win someone, i just want to do it better. It is very slow progressing, but i make it go forward, i drill it inch by inch. Maybe it is a solely a kind of rigid, i dont know. Only little people is a inborn winner, for someone like me with no any talent and brillant mind, i am glad to have this kind of rigid - Maybe it is my lalent.

你個罩呢? where is your mask ?

The first comfirmed swine flu case was found in HK on 1st May, who was a tourist from Mexico. I believed it would be soon that Mainland China and Macau have its first H1N1 comfirmed case. It was inevitable for us to live under the treat amid the wide spread of the lethal virus, so we should do sth with it such as put on mask, wash your hands and keeping good health. But, it was not the case actually. The fact was that i hardly saw anyone putting on their mask in the street or in bus when i was getting around, except someone walking out from the Superior Count (HaHa.....). Sometimes, i found people just spat on the street, or had a bad cough in the crowd. It seemed everything was okay, nothing had happened, Cheer.
Well, i bet i will see not more than one-tenth putting on their mask when i board the bus tomorrow.
Share something interesting with you:

" We all know Schubert had not a nickel to spare, so why u still think of that classic music is just for wealthy? "
I am gald to see the HK Sinfonietta take efforts to beckon people to know classical music in terms of young and fun, even i know nothing with classical.

無事說書 - 川端康成 Kawabata Yasunari

I love to read, but only few people around me know. I am struggling to talk with my friends about reading, on one hand, they dont like it. On the other hand, despite they like it, they only have interest to read books like "How to be rich", "How to make friend with somebody u hate" or "What if your father is 李嘉誠?". I reiterate that i am not going to condenm anything, i understand we all have freedom to choice, I just sometimes feel a kind of lonely. But i enjoy this kind of feeling, and in my university life, i was grateful to have some friends to talk with (e.g. Martin). I remembered at one time we used to talk about Kawabata Yasunari.

Snow Country (雪國) is the first Kawabata Yasunari (川端康成) book i read, and i have liked it the most with all Kawabata's books. The first is the best, it is always vaild to me. But i also like the other books by Kawabata as well, just like "The Old Capital", "The Sound of Mountain" and "Thousand Cranes". Ironically, i had not have a read of one of the most popular "The dancing Girl of lzu". Many alleged that Kawabata's works were some kinds of porns and self-destructive, claimed the life was meaningless and trival. It was fair enough to say the stories were sort of depression, sometimes it tried to give u a message that in front of your desperate life, no matter how u did, u just could not get any meaning out of it. But i had never ever thought that. I believed that what it's trying to say was totally different. Definitely you were not likely to get any meaning out of you life, just because the fact is: You are the one to give meaning to life. If you want to have a inclusive and versatile life, just do sth to make it: 人如果冇夢想, 咁同條咸魚有咩分別? Kawabata is saying that: Yes, maybe it is sort of useless, maybe it cannot benefit anything, maybe even it is totally wrong to do so, but you just do it because it is you "evidence of existence", and we thus can make a tough response to our desperate life.

Reading of Kawabata is a wonderful experience, as if u were not reading the words, instead u were looking at a screen. At the very beginning in "Snow Country", a men in a train looked at the window glass of the carriage. The glass reflected the image of the girl next to the men, collaborated the sights behind the glass, made a abstract and "transparent" picture. For something we often did in our daily, Kawabata made it in terms of symbolic and artistic. So you may found that you would want to stop, want to see, started to notice, look at the small things in your life after reading Kawabata. Remember, everything have its own meaning, but you need to find out.

For someone who loves Japan, wants to know more about Japan in terms of culture and spirit, Kawabata should be you favourite writer, and it is one of the points to win him the Noble Prize of Literature. But it is also good for leisure reading, at lease it is vaild to me.

難得認真的頭條新聞 - 1989 democratic movement

Someone said, for the generation like us, 20 years ago Tiananmen Incident was just like a historical material. We can read it on textbook, we can discuss with our friends, but we are not needed to be so serious because it was a long times ago. In 1989, all of us were so small, so we have had an excuse not to pick it up, we are not responsible into it. Everythings was simply blurred for us.

That's why recently we heard someone comment the incidient in terms of doubt and unrealised assumption, such as: The student leaders were 'runaway' leader, or the military suppersion would be avoided if protesters dispersed peacfully, sth else. But the fact is: The national troops pointed their gun and fired to the unarmed students, simply because the studentes were there fighting way for demoncrazy and accused of corruption. The tanks crushed to the people and the reason just was the people wanted to express their disappointed to the country. The tear was the people's tear, the blood was the people's blood.

Not to forget, not to shirk. We have the responsibilty to hold the truth.