不游得 - About swimming

Maybe it is unwise to go swimming amid swine flu, but i have done it today. Who's fxxking cares? Why do i want to talk about swimming? There are a few reasons, swimming is almost the only good thing i would do, i am really grateful to have such a healthy habit. Also i have read Murakami Haruki's "what i talk about when i talk about running"(即村上春樹的《關於跑步，我說的其實是⋯⋯》, 中譯版推出了相當一段時間了), that inspires me. (Actually i have yet to finish it, it is a very nice book, i will likely to share my feeling for it once i finish.)

Many people know how to swim pretty well, but i am not one of them. I am too weak for freestyle, too aggressive for backstroke, too struggled for breast stroke, and, too tired for butterfly stroke. Perhaps swimming is funny for you, but i want to say, it is a suffering for me. I have a friend (Dennis) who is really good at swimming and he is my coach (but not very professional). At first, he teached me how to do freesytle, when i was a novice for swimming. No matter how hard he taught, how hard i tried, i just could not do it for 50 metres. In that summer, the utmost i could do is just about 25m. As you could see in swimming pool, many old man, old woman, even baby girl, can do 100 more metres easily, and you could understand how frustrated i was. In the next summer, it's better - 40 metre. Some of my friends, those did not know how to swim very well and received no train, could finish 50 metre easily. You could see someone who keep waving his body in the water, but didn't move any forward. Yes, it is me. It made me feel some kind of depression, and some kind of angry. I have done it unremittingly, I spent all my time, why i can't make it ? The another side of pool seem too far to reach, my body seem too heavy to float. I was hydrophobic. Maybe basketball or running was a better chioce for me.

But i dont know why, i just haven't given up at that time. Never think of me that i am a tough guy, i am not, definitely. Maybe my ancestry have done somethings, ghost knows? As i saw all the people surpassing me, i just kept waving my body, not very nice-looking, unremittingly. Sometimes others would think of that i was drowned. I crawled in the water, metre by metre. One day, i found i can reach the another side of pool, despite slowly - I made it. That 50 metres made me a shining moment in my life. So i could do as good as my friends, Yeah~

So how about how far i can go now? Over 1000 metre, i am not kidding. But my pace is still low, i can just do it slowly. It doesn't matter, i am not going to win someone, i just want to do it better. It is very slow progressing, but i make it go forward, i drill it inch by inch. Maybe it is a solely a kind of rigid, i dont know. Only little people is a inborn winner, for someone like me with no any talent and brillant mind, i am glad to have this kind of rigid - Maybe it is my lalent.

你個罩呢? where is your mask ?

The first comfirmed swine flu case was found in HK on 1st May, who was a tourist from Mexico. I believed it would be soon that Mainland China and Macau have its first H1N1 comfirmed case. It was inevitable for us to live under the treat amid the wide spread of the lethal virus, so we should do sth with it such as put on mask, wash your hands and keeping good health. But, it was not the case actually. The fact was that i hardly saw anyone putting on their mask in the street or in bus when i was getting around, except someone walking out from the Superior Count (HaHa.....). Sometimes, i found people just spat on the street, or had a bad cough in the crowd. It seemed everything was okay, nothing had happened, Cheer.
Well, i bet i will see not more than one-tenth putting on their mask when i board the bus tomorrow.
Share something interesting with you:

" We all know Schubert had not a nickel to spare, so why u still think of that classic music is just for wealthy? "
I am gald to see the HK Sinfonietta take efforts to beckon people to know classical music in terms of young and fun, even i know nothing with classical.

無事說書 - 川端康成 Kawabata Yasunari

I love to read, but only few people around me know. I am struggling to talk with my friends about reading, on one hand, they dont like it. On the other hand, despite they like it, they only have interest to read books like "How to be rich", "How to make friend with somebody u hate" or "What if your father is 李嘉誠?". I reiterate that i am not going to condenm anything, i understand we all have freedom to choice, I just sometimes feel a kind of lonely. But i enjoy this kind of feeling, and in my university life, i was grateful to have some friends to talk with (e.g. Martin). I remembered at one time we used to talk about Kawabata Yasunari.

Snow Country (雪國) is the first Kawabata Yasunari (川端康成) book i read, and i have liked it the most with all Kawabata's books. The first is the best, it is always vaild to me. But i also like the other books by Kawabata as well, just like "The Old Capital", "The Sound of Mountain" and "Thousand Cranes". Ironically, i had not have a read of one of the most popular "The dancing Girl of lzu". Many alleged that Kawabata's works were some kinds of porns and self-destructive, claimed the life was meaningless and trival. It was fair enough to say the stories were sort of depression, sometimes it tried to give u a message that in front of your desperate life, no matter how u did, u just could not get any meaning out of it. But i had never ever thought that. I believed that what it's trying to say was totally different. Definitely you were not likely to get any meaning out of you life, just because the fact is: You are the one to give meaning to life. If you want to have a inclusive and versatile life, just do sth to make it: 人如果冇夢想, 咁同條咸魚有咩分別? Kawabata is saying that: Yes, maybe it is sort of useless, maybe it cannot benefit anything, maybe even it is totally wrong to do so, but you just do it because it is you "evidence of existence", and we thus can make a tough response to our desperate life.

Reading of Kawabata is a wonderful experience, as if u were not reading the words, instead u were looking at a screen. At the very beginning in "Snow Country", a men in a train looked at the window glass of the carriage. The glass reflected the image of the girl next to the men, collaborated the sights behind the glass, made a abstract and "transparent" picture. For something we often did in our daily, Kawabata made it in terms of symbolic and artistic. So you may found that you would want to stop, want to see, started to notice, look at the small things in your life after reading Kawabata. Remember, everything have its own meaning, but you need to find out.

For someone who loves Japan, wants to know more about Japan in terms of culture and spirit, Kawabata should be you favourite writer, and it is one of the points to win him the Noble Prize of Literature. But it is also good for leisure reading, at lease it is vaild to me.

難得認真的頭條新聞 - 1989 democratic movement

Someone said, for the generation like us, 20 years ago Tiananmen Incident was just like a historical material. We can read it on textbook, we can discuss with our friends, but we are not needed to be so serious because it was a long times ago. In 1989, all of us were so small, so we have had an excuse not to pick it up, we are not responsible into it. Everythings was simply blurred for us.

That's why recently we heard someone comment the incidient in terms of doubt and unrealised assumption, such as: The student leaders were 'runaway' leader, or the military suppersion would be avoided if protesters dispersed peacfully, sth else. But the fact is: The national troops pointed their gun and fired to the unarmed students, simply because the studentes were there fighting way for demoncrazy and accused of corruption. The tanks crushed to the people and the reason just was the people wanted to express their disappointed to the country. The tear was the people's tear, the blood was the people's blood.

Not to forget, not to shirk. We have the responsibilty to hold the truth.

聞.見.思.錄

http://blog.hoiking.org/

It is one of the best webblog in the internet in these years, i do believe. Just click and go, i dont want to say anymore.
But I should mention one thing: The blooger and i both are the Fans of Eva.

Michael Jackson ?

It was the 1st time, i blamed myself that why i was born in HK? but not UK or somewhere in Europe. MJ had announced his comeback concert on coming July in London. Some Sources had said it was the first station of the worldwide tour of about 10 countries. I didn't think that's true, simply considered the health condition of MJ, but i wished HK would be the one of them.
It was not cool to like MJ (& Phil Collins), someone said. It was fair enough to say the best time of MJ had gone. People only remembered his nose, his colour and allegations to him. Even for someone had not ever knew "Billie Jeans", "Man in the mirror" or "Dangerous", knew well about the plastic surgery and child abuse scandals of MJ with detail. "Who's Michael Jackson?", if u asked, "Someone have a collapsed nose." , it was the answer.
I am not going to defence MJ, despite i do really like him, but i think it is not fair to judge someone according to such gossip news. Do you think that is possible to make someone from black to white over one night? Please, if it's true, i think most of the cosmetic company will close desperately, and u will never think of why SK-2 can still be the church of girls. (Girls contribute one-tenth to).
Do u remember Michael Jackson Pepsi commerial? It was sth i heard: a accident happened during the production, and MJ was injured and his face and back got burnt by fire. Pepsi kept everything a low-profile and turned out that the news had not spreaded over. But MJ's nose was severely injured and could not be completely healed. I dont know whether it is true, just believe it or not.
Now I want to ask a question: what's Art? Is that Andy Lau or Kay Tse Art? It depends. For me, Someone commits to one particular thing with paying his whole life, that's called Art. So, Pacasso is Art, Van Gogh is Art, Albert Einstein is Art, your mother loves you is Art, and Michael Jackson is Art. His life is merely made of Song, Dance, and tragedies. Maybe u think of that i am kidding, but i believe it is not very diffcult to understand me, if u have tried to know more about MJ. (All of the HK performers claimed that they were artist, they should think twice).
If u talk about MJ with u friends next time, Pls, not just focus on the MJ face.

時光飛逝

Today is 5th April 2009, don't be afraid that u have been backed to the 1995. It has been 14 years and many things has been change and cannot be returned. But i think it is appropiate to talk sth i like-most in my blog. Absolutely Eva is one of them. It is hard to introduce that great anime in words, if u r one of the Eva fans, u realises my meaning. If u has never seen or heard that b4, i highly recommend u to see it once. I have great confident to say that u will regret for meeting it too late. The paper angel Wiki has done a great job to make u a basic (?) concept about Eva: Click Me

1995, it's the Era of VHS, is a meaningful year of the japan anime to have such unpercedent impact - the first publishment of Neon Genesis Evangelion. At the beginning it was not very well known and it seemed that new comer cannot catch anyone's attendtion. The first time i saw it is because of my sister's boyfriend, who lended me a comic version of Eva, volume 1 and 2. It should be One of my important ossacations in my life (maybe it is too serious to say that). I had been falled in the world of eva, i slaved.

I remembered that a video shop in town-centre, where becomed a toy department of Jusco right now, selling japan anime VHS. For each time i went with my mother to town centre, i tried to make myself a chance to go to the shop, just to see the box covers of those Eva VHS. It should be about 25 or 26 volumes, and i cant took a look to all of them each time, i just had too little time to do so cos my mum would take me out. It had already been my lightened moment, for a little boy like me. I never thought about to buy 1 or 2 volumes cos i had no such cash, further, i enjoyed that sweet-heart moment , 3 or 4 minutes a day, was my most preious time. Yes, I had already realised the meaning of what the fox said to little prince at that time. (Though i desperatly tried to find those VHS when i grown up).

For a boy so young, easy to be influenced, the symbolic anime hit me with a enormous impact. A unspeakable depression feeling was took-over the entire story, and it made those char in the story a extra-ordinary charm and a unique world outlook. I easily dissloved in the story everytime, i was lightened with them, i depressed with them, i sorrowed with them.

But sometimes i struggled to talk about the Eva ot my new friend. Absolutely i love it, but the anime came up with so great deal of 'otakuism'(?). To be a otaku, someone who easily misunderstand by people surrounding, it makes me a little bit uneasy to share and discuss with. (Yes, i am so defective).

It has been 14 yrs, i am no longer a little boy. My heart is no more room for sth like that. I be a person who hard to influence (?), only little things can rasie my interest and make me commit in. It is the price we paid to grown up. Despite we has lost sth in growing, we get sth new, sth more important, sth make us able to find and pursue our own dream. We will be more proative, we more realise the world. We can set our own target, and go ahead as fast as u can. We are not likely to return to pursuit our highest form. Sth will be leave behind, it is inevitable. That's why it is so preious, cos we cannot get it again.

The 2nd episode of Eva movie will be going to show in summer this yr. i remembered the 1st episode was shown in spring in 2008, and nobody wanted to go with me at that time. I was so frustrated at the moment. I hope i can get someone to go along with me this yr. Thanks God.